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Well, this story has been a long time in the making
I guess you can say. I will try to keep it
short...but...well you know...it's not.
DH and I started ttc in Nov. of 99. My mom has pcos
also and needed clomid to have my sisters and I, all
on her first round. I knew it wouldn't be as easy as
other people, but I knew that clomid was the trick. I
stopped taking the pill in Nov..then months went by
with no AF. finally in March of 2000 I went to see my
OB/GYN not only to seek infertility treatments but
because I was worried about not having a period for so
long. She gave me provera to start af and taught me
how to temp. I did that for 2 months and the rocky
mountains appeared on my chart as the days went on.
Obviously i wasn't O'ing. I went back to see her and
she gave me more provera and 50 mg of clomid. I was so
excited because I knew my mom got pg all 3 times on
her first try with clomid. but..weeks went by and
nothing..no O, no nothing. I went back to see her 4
weeks later and she gave me more provera and another
50mg of clomid..same thing again..nothing. Next time
she bumped me up to 100mg..I was excited at first but
to no avail, no O again. this time she told me that
she was moving and I would need a new Ob/gyn an she
gave me a name to go to. he did u/s in his office
which she had never done before, so i was excited. at
that time she also gave me a referral to the RE's
office. I made an appointment there for October or
2000.
I started seeing my new ob/gyn in august. first
thing he did was run all kinds of tests, knowing that
i would come back with pcos and nothing else, i wasn't
worried. to my surprise I got a call late on Friday
night fro him, telling me the my chlamydia test had
come back positive...I was devastated. not only had i
made mistakes as a younger girl, but they were back to
haunt me. It had gone undetected for 7 years...who
knows the damage that could have been done. that
Saturday he treated dh and I and we were on our way
again. he gave me 150mg of clomid this time and
decided to monitor my with u/s which made me very
happy. cd 13...nothing...cd 15..nothing... low and
behold i had one ok looking follicle on cd 20. i got
my hcg shot and was so excited because I knew this
would be it. if I could only O...everything would be
great. well, no pg. that month. the next time 150
again but no follicles in site...he gave me provera to
start again. this time I was up to 200mg...i got a
nice size follicle and again was very excited. When
doing my u/s he told me that my lining was so very
thin and there was nothing he could do because it was
from the clomid. This was my last cycle with him...
he was ok, but wasn't my favorite dr. in the world i
guess.
DH and I met with my RE a month and a half later. he
decided to do the work up, HSG (whish i dreaded), SA,
u/s, bloodwork, you name it, he did it. everything was
great except the bloodwork, which we already knew
about. my testosterone level was through the roof. I
had read in a book that saw palmetto berries help
lower testosterone in women, so I started that right
away. He started me off on clomid at 200 and got the
same follicles and the same hcg shot and what
not...again, no pg. we went up to 2 rounds at 250mg
and nothing as well... the side effects were killing
me and I was a mess.
I decided to take a little bit off while I gave
Glucophage (metformin) a try. i had done so much
research on it and had been eager to try it for
months. i also decided to join a gym and get my weight
down a bit as that would help too. From Feb. of 2001
to may I lost 30 pounds and was starting to feel much
better. I decided to start with treatments again in
June. This time I started back at 100mg because of the
met and made a beautiful follicle and one that was
close...I also got my bloodwork back and it was all
practically normal. I knew this would be it. i got my
hcg and was trying IUI's at this point as well. all
went smoothly and two weeks brought nothing but a
later AF. I was so upset, but eager to try again. this
time, 150mg...same thing..2 follies, IUI, HCG...thick
lining..but nothing once more. I was becoming even
more depressed and tired than I had ever been before,
beginning to realize there wasn't much hope. My RE
being the wonderful man her is though, kept my spirits
up. We tried two more rounds of clomid and IUI and I
told him i was done, I couldn't take it anymore. In
sept. of 2001 I moved on to Gonal f. I had heard that
there is a higher success rate with injections plus a
lot less side effects. The shots weren't bad at all
and my re monitored me relentlessly. everything was
going fine, my ovaries were a little sluggish, but I
had 4 mature follies by cd 18. i got HCG and IUI and
thought for SURE this was it!! well...as you have
guessed, nothing. i was so down and depressed, but
willing to try once more. same protocol only beefed up
the amount a little bit. i got 3 follicles and an ok
lining of 7. Re gave me HCG and IUI again. I was so
depressed at this point. i told him i wanted to
schedule a lap and take awhile off after this. he said
ok and I went home.
That brings me to las Thursday... told you this
would be long :)
Last Wednesday my temp dropped almost to cl...it
was 8 dpo and the cycle before I had the same thing
happen and AF arrived early on 12dpo. last cycle i
also had slight spotting on 10 and 11 dpo right before
af showed. Thursday night I made some steak for
dinner, one of my favorite things in the world. I
took a few bites and was done with it. i thought it
odd, but since the temp drop I didn't think anything
like this. Friday, 9dpo I had brown cm just like last
month and another low temp. I thought great, another
AF early this month... I was soood depressed i wrote
my family a huge e-mail asking for help because i
couldn't do this anymore and I didn't know how to
handle being infertile. 10 dpo my temp went back up
and more brown cm..i didn't think anything of it
because my temp seems to drop and then rise a little
bit right before AF. next day (11dpo) spotting was
gone, no af temp still back up. It was odd, but still
thought nothing of it. 12dpo my temp went up a little
more, but still nothing odd. On 13 dpo I had a
Halloween party to go to and was planning on drinking
my pain away. i decided to take a clear blue easy HPT
'just in case'. well, an ever so faint line came up
immediately but then faded away within minutes. i
didn't know what to think, but the ladies on here told
me that clear blue does that and it was probably a +.
I decided to be the dd at the party :) Sunday night i
felt fine, but had an odd craving for eggs. Again, i
thought nothing of it. Monday morning I decided to
take another test, AF was due that day (15dpo) and I
was anxious. The same thing happened, only a little
darker, but faded away. I told the dr. I wanted a beta
and they sent me in for one that morning at 8:30.
Usually the nurses call back with results around
noon-2 pm. Well...noon came, then 1..and 2 and then
3pm...I was so nervous I couldn't concentrate so I
called and left a billion messages for them. Finally
at about 4pm my dr. called and said "If you were in my
office I would be giving you high five's all over the
place!!" At 15dpo my beta was at 67...a LITTLE low,
but nice. My dr. was just as much amazed as i was. I
had a LAP scheduled for December and have 3 adoption
seminars to attend this month! It's funny how things
work I guess. I believe I am now 5 weeks and 3 days,
but I may be off. We have our first u/s on Nov. 19th,
Dh is sooo excited!
As for symptoms, my first one was the aversion to
meat at 11dpo. At that same time my temp had dropped
and I had started spotting thinking AF was on her way.
I was also SEVERELY emotional and VERY pmsy's. I was
SO sure that this had failed again. on 14dpo i had the
cravings for eggs and went in for my beta at 15dpo,
the day AF was due. Oh, the only other sign that was
really different was my nipples itched something
FIERCE at about 12dpo-15dpo. other than that, nothing
is different. the first week after finding out I had a
lot of pulling/stretching cramps, but no m/s or
anything else. I guess i should feel lucky, but
instead I am just scared to death :)
My story goes to show that it really can happen I
guess, even after you think you've done and tried it
all. ++++++++++
Cindy GoToBed
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